What I last munched on seemed like a good title for today's post.
My emotional health is not doing great, and I fear it may have negative affects on Riley. I don't know if my feelings are coming from hormones, or if they come from my own issues with Borderline Personality Disorder and Depression. I was on a few different medicines,before pregnancy. That is another thing that worries me, because I was still taking them for about 5 weeks, before I knew I was pregnant. I don't really feel depressed like I did when I was off my medications before: I'm happy, I'm looking forward to raising a baby with the guy I love, I worry about how we will do, and money, but those seem normal. I have no thoughts of cutting, or any self harm for the first time in my life I'm actully looking forward to tomorrow. It's just, I'm so tired, all the time, I'm sleeping what feels like too much, I don't feel like doing anything, my house hold duties are slacking, I lay in bed, eat,pee and go back to bed most days. I thought the 2nd trimester was going to bring my energy back, but most days it's still gone. I don't ever try to contact other people, but I'm kind of lonely while boyface is at work, or sleeping. I don't feel like I have any friends anymore, and I don't know how I feel about that. I don't really want to be around the few people I was friends with, because they are only interested in activities that I'm not partaking in anymore. How do you make new friends when you are a socially awkward penguin? On top of that, everything makes me cry, that much crying can't be good for Riley....::Sight::
Whatever
*Sunshine*
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